Ended 2016 With Love & Fun, Let There Be Adventure & Thrills In 2017

More adventures, less negativity, more thrills, less drama, more laughter, less bad vibes

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!!!!

Damn I'm one day late.
Lemme just do a quick 2016 summary :D

Hmm let's see....
I graduated from SP, that was like one of the happiest day of 2016!
Emotions filled the skate park with everybody taking photos, holding balloons, giving out cards, bouquet of flowers & broccoli??? HAHAHAHA
Life is funny: when you are schooling, you can't wait to graduate. When you graduated, you miss school.
A similar convo from my friends: when you worked indoors, you can't wait to work outdoors. Then when you worked outdoors, you wanna go back indoors.

I traveled to South Korea - Busan & Seoul.
It was the best trip so far in my life!!!!
The girls I went with are steady people, which are my kind of people to go overseas with!
In general actually..
The rich culture and traditions of Korea were enriching and I am grateful to have experience them in the 2 weeks.
Delicious street food, abundance shopping places, fun-filled activities to play!!!
To think I'm going back there this year again :D

In May, I started Technical Theatre Training Programme in Esplanade, which is a one year course.
I am happy with what I am doing now, and I have to thank my internship director for introducing me this course.
Had I not sat down and have a talk with him on the last day of my intern, I probably be doing some odd jobs.
It also strengthen my desire to pursue a career in the entertainment/arts/theatre line.

2016 is also the year where I had the worse emotional breakdown.
I was also confused with my emotions. My feelings were being toyed with.
Have you ever held onto something for so long (say half a year) only to tell yourself you have to let go because it won't do you good?
Even though you don't bear to?
My efforts, time, care & concern were wasted on somebody who isn't serious with me.
That, is an important lesson to me, I forgive, but I won't forget.
Because I use it to build myself up, make myself grow stronger emotionally, and actually thank him for treating me like this.
Sure, I was treated nicely but I was being used.
Ultimately, I felt so free and happier after I let go.
It's in the past, I will leave it behind in 2016. :)
Because before the year ended, something amazing happened to me.
It was the perfect thing that happened to me, & I am overjoyed for that :)

2016 is also the year where many of my close friends, including me, turned 21.
There were parties here and there throughout the year & I enjoyed myself in every birthday party I attended. :)
I wonder when will be the next big birthday party.

F1 SGP 2016 was not that happening as compared to previous years but being given the opportunity to work during F1 was a big experience for me.
Although my role & tasks weren't a huge part but it sure did contribute to it. :)

There were also little bits and pieces that made up 2016 which I am grateful for.
Think I talk too much.

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Day 1: 31 December 2016

For the first time since the first time I started counting down outside, I am doing it outside of Singapore.
Just counting down at our neighbour country, Malaysia.
Initially our plan was Airbnb, but the host canceled on us, which is such an ass.
Then hotel, then Jingxuan (JJX) suddenly has a semi-d in M'sia, which belongs to his aunt.
So we don't have to pay a cent for accommodation! & it's freaking 2 storeys that has enough bedrooms for us.
Fian & JX went in the day before first so Cong, Guanming (GM), my Jie & I will meet the guys there straight.
We met at 7am and entered JB at 8am!! Fast right??
I didn't take a lot of photos cos I was too absorbed in enjoying myself hahahaha

We settled ourselves down while waiting for JX's friend to fetch us to Sutera Mall for lunch.
Imagine 6 passengers squeeze in a car! FUN ENSUE!!!!!

Taken by Fian. Never have I ever sat so straight in a car for a long period of time

I bought bubble gum!! From this shop, like legit can blow bubble.

See the Korean Restaurant behind this candy shop? We had lunch at Mr. Dakgalbi!
It's delicious but the one in Korea obviously is better.
We went for grocery shopping in the supermarket for the house - snacks, tissues, alcohol, more snacks, etc.

MASSAGE

Next we went to massage!!!
The few massage parlours we saw looks edgy but we walked further and found a traditional massage parlour.
It was my first ever massage experience!!
I MUST SAY, I FELT LIKE A REBORN BABY AFTER THE SESSION MY GOODNESS.
After a good therapeutic sesh, we went to have dinner at this place that is similar to Newton Circus.
FOOD COMA HERE I COME!!!!

So stupid they thought I was recording a video

This guy's middle finger got to go

They have 3 big projector screens playing different movies! Shiok or what!!

Then look who I bumped into!!!

Charlynn! Such a coincidence!

Actually I saw her & went towards her when we were walking to find a massage parlour, but to think we are eating at the same food place????

Soon it's nightfall... & you know what happens at night ;)

For one night, think we can finish them???

This fucking game created so much SUSPENSE!!
We damn cb to each other like when one of us poke the sword in, we would SHOUT to scare one another HAHAHAHAH
There was another game, the Drinking Roulette Game which we brought over from SG.
That one also fun cos you dunno what you got - plain water, orange juice, vodka, whiskey, rum, sprite, etc.
GM was the first one to be down (weak sia he) but the rest of us continued playing & drinking.
Then when JX K.O. ...

We could've be much cruel but because we were using my eyeliner and that shit expensive, ain't gonna destroy it on his oily face

We were able to enjoy the fireworks from our room & it was pretty amazing! :D
Slowly one by one, we were dead tired and just K.O.

DAY 2: 1 Jan 2017

Surprisingly, we all woke up before noon! Considering we drank so much & slept at almost 4am.
Brunch at a coffee shop then when we're finished, JX went back to shower & changed, & GM followed him.
They cleaned the house too (thanks guys!!).
So that's just left the 4 of us, we decided to go JB cafe-hopping!!!
First stop: The Replacement

Taken by Fian

As you can see, the nicer photos were taken by Fian.
The churros was so-so, but the french toast is good! They use brioche bread!
Really yummy, would go for their french toast again.

Second stop: KONE

There's actually dry ice smoking out but you can't really see in this photo.
Well, the excitement lasted for only a short while.

Chey step.

We then walked aimlessly until we found a mall and went to their supermarket to buy our needs.
By needs I mean like food.
We had dinner at the same place and then we decided that instead of going back SG on 2 Jan, we go back that night.
So after dinner we went back to pack our stuff and got ready to leave!
Again we squeezed into JX's friend's car from the dinner place back to the apartment.

So thankful & blessed to spend my NYE & New Year's with you guys!! ♥

Oh! It was also my first time walking from JB Custom to Woodlands Checkpoint.
Yes, you read that right, we legit walked from JB all the way to Woodlands.
Why? Because the bus queue is horrible. The frequency is terrible.
I guess it's an experience & adventure??? Good thing it was windy at night :)
After all I need to drop 2kg so it was a good choice to walk hahahha :P

It may seemed like my NYE is boring but I was really enjoying myself with these (cb) friends who I am proud to have, to call them my real friends.
I'm always laughing whenever I'm spending time with them.
2017 - here's to more drinking sesh (even though I said I wanna cut down on my alcohol intake) and more adventures & thrills.
We shall laugh harder, create precious memories and cherish every moment together.
Okay that's quite gay but what can I do, I'm a mushy person ;)

I wonder what 2017 has in store for me! :)

Alright 2013, make way for 2014

Whoa! 2013 just whizz past like that! Can you believe that?
It's 2014 now! A fresh beginning! This year I have New Year's Resolution.. but I doubt I can follow it.
Do you have New Year's resolution?
In 2914, I know 1 thing for sure: & that is the WORLD CUP.
Man, I remember going to Wafir's house when I was sec 3 along with my other friends. We stayed over in his house but I fell asleep halfway the game, only to be awaken up by the sudden roar of 'GOOOOOOAAAAALLLL!!'
Then I woke up like 'huh huh who scored? Paraguay??'

Countdown for 2014 was.. let's say each year it gets less happening & less happening..
People get fewer & fewer...
There's only Cong, Fian, Jiahong, Jas & I..
We went to Marina Bay for the fireworks, hoping to slack at the usual place where we always go: the wooden platform facing the river.
BUT.
I didn't expect the unexpected: it was freaking mayhem.
Okay lah maybe not that exaggerating but it was madly crowded.
The walking pace was walk-stop, walk-stop.
But we manage to find a place to sit (but it was a bad spot I'll tell you why later)
So we played cards, with the poker deck from Cong.
Games like Blackjack, Daiti, Heart Attack & this new game called 'Wu Gui' taught by Cong.
We had a hard time trying to decipher what the hell he was explaining because his English really CMI & he had his braces on.
Then Jiahong explained it in a simpler & shorter way & all of us understood it. d:
However....
That game ruin friendship like Uno & Monopoly.
At a point of time Jiahong thinks the game is flawed, but I was standing on Cong's side.
But then again I thought about his logic & went over to Jiahong's.
And THEN AGAIN with all the explaining i went back to Cong.
Fian got so frustrated he threw his deck on the ground & said 'ALAH F*CK YOU ALL LAH'
HAHAH HOLY SHIT I could not stop laughing!!!




In between games there was countless time of laughter.
I mean, in this gang we can insult each other but we laugh it off because, hell it was really hilarious.
& we all know we are joking.
But I can 't do this to others lah, like my poly friends or my secondary school classmates (except Rahim & the Douches)

When it was nearing the countdown, more & more people came squeezing. Eventually we got up & waiting for the fireworks.
Here's the thing: we thought the fireworks will be shot up the sky in front of us.
The professional photographers already had their DSLRs set up & waiting for the glorious moment to erupt.
It was difficult for them because it was really packed & then they had to deal with heads that block their view.
10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1
WHOO FIREWORKS!!!!
BUT THE DEVIL DECIDE TO TROLL US. WHY? BECAUSE THE FIREWORKS WERE AROUND THE PLATFORM @ MARINA BAY (or was it Marina Bay Sands), & OUR VIEW OF THE SPECTACULAR PYROTECHNICS WERE BLOCKED BY MOTHER NATURE.
Yes I'm talking about TREES.
I guess this is their way of revenge because the fireworks produce so much air pollution.
Can you imagine the looks on the photographer's face.
That sulky look, sunken hearts?
I beg those equipments are heavy & hard to carry. I bet they came early to book the spots. But in the end?
I felt sad for them.

So after the main objective, we wanna grab something to eat because we were darn hungry. As we walk out the place, Jiahong & I started wishing strangers 'HAPPY NEW YEAR' & many responded to us! Some are even enthusiastic xD
While others just have no compassion.

There were people sitting on the ledge, so I told JH to go running in front of them with his hands out & say 'HAPPY NEW YEAR' to see if anyone slaps his hand.
Kinda like an athlete hi-fiving the fans, you know?
Apparently there are responses! The responses fueled my laughter & I went high!
I saw a Bangladeshi taking a selfie, so i joined in by standing beside him & pose. After the shot, i shook his hand & wished his a HNY, he wished back!
Jas & the rest were laughing their ass off. i mean, c'mon! it's New Year!

Had our meal in Mac & it was a miracle we found seats inside.
My goodness 1st meal of the year I'm having fast food; I hate fast food & it's been so long since i had them :(

We walked a long distance from Dhoby Ghaut to Somerset then to Orchard. We sent Jas off & the 4 of us slack at FEP.
Played Uno but in the end we cabbed home at 5 because 2 NR2 were packed.




Nevertheless, I had fun out counting down with you guys! Hopefully this year will be a blast!!
Once again, Happy New Year to everyone!! Hope this year will be more of Ups than Downs, & let the past be the past! :)

Growing Up

'What is the purpose of life?'
'What/who am I living for?'
'Why am I living?'

There are more questions we asked ourselves in some point of our life; be it while we shower, while we take a shit, when we're eating, etc.
So today's post - because it's the last day of 2012, I'm going to have a self-evaluation in the past 17 years of my life.
Come to think of it - whoa - time flies really fast huh?
I've completed my 'O' levels and am leveling up to tertiary education next year.
I feel the need to do this because, self-reflecting can see how a person is like, how a person has changed or remained the same, how a person has become.
If there is a need to correct, one can refer to this & make him/her a better person.
I feel that, I need some adjustments to myself, in terms of thinking.

This will be a lengthy post, because there are categories to what I'm going to write.
But it worth a read!

[SELF]

Work:
Right now, I am currently having my holidays. And while waiting for my results to be out, I took up a part-time job.
It is a phone shop: offering repair services, selling non-contract phones, phone accessories.
The first day of work, I was very nervous and shy - of course, seeing my boss & my colleague.
I need to learn how to apply phone screen protector, remember the price of phones.
The skill took me more than 2 weeks to get it right.
I managed to get all the dusts out, with zero bubbles, but what I am bad at is that whenever I apply, it wasn't straight.
But now, it is better :)
My boss is gentle, and he will point out my mistake rather than scolding me.
But he also have a bad side of him ah.
My colleague, was quite okay to work with, except that he doesn't talk a lot & it's hard to communicate because of the 'age-gap' he keep emphasizing =_= (he's only 5 years older than me)
So, when there's no customers I'll be using my phone or doing nothing.
Overall, the work is not very stressful.
Except for one day I accidentally spill coffee in front of 2 customers (the cup was 2/3 full); and 2 cute guy customers came & I don't know why I because nervous and I can't apply the screen protector (it was embarrassing for me); and the other day where I accidentally broke a customer's Hello Kitty phone cover (I assume it was the real Sanrio because she said it cost her $50, don't know if she's lying or not).
Yeeeeeeap, with the exception of these misfortune (I exaggerate a lot), the job's pretty fine to me.
I don't have to wake up early in the morning, and there is a straight bus from my house's bus stop to my work place.
I'm so glad my boss hire me :)
You get to use your phone (when there's no customers) and there's a chair for me to sit, rather than waitress or cashier or clothing line or other part-time jobs where you have to stand for long hours.
The pay wasn't high but seeing how the job is not stressful & both my boss & colleague are not those bossy & asshole type, I'll satisfied with what I have now :0

Behaviour & Attitude:
I know very well I am very sensitive & have low-confidence.
Sensitive in terms of MANY aspects.
Because I can tell when my friend is being sarcastic/joking or there is a thin hidden truth in their words.
They might add 'just joking' after their comments but their tone & looks - are given away.
I'm sensitive; not stupid.
I also over-think a lot. I imagine scenarios that are possible to happen & link to many different horrible images.
Like my best friend she had food poisoning, and she didn't reply my texts for one whole day and the day before.
I thought that she's lying unconscious on the hospital bed & I was worried sick.
Another thing is that, I realised that I don't process my words before I spit them out.
Then I immediately regret what I said.
I hope to change this: one of my New Year's resolution :)

Future:
Dreams. Ambitions. Wishes.
The past, present and future.

 

What are my dreams and ambitions?
I thought of opening my own bakery, so seriously that I actually have new ideas & inventions for my breads.
Of course I won't reveal what are they, but believe me, the ideas I have cannot be found in Singapore.

My 2 steps to success:
1) Never reveal all your secrets.

But then I thought again, there are other successful bakeries such as, you all know, Breadtalk, Four Leaves, Crystal Jade.
I don't wanna end up having a neighbourhood bakery.
I am greedy: I wanna score high and be successful.
So then, I tossed that idea away.. :T
However, my dream of starting my own business stays the same.
I want to be like my father: don't like the idea of working under someone.
My dream job, however, shall not be revealed. Hehehe :D

As one grow up, many thing changes: their taste in music, food, clothing, etc.
THIS IS VERY TRUE.
I remember me telling Eve that I won't go for label stuff because it's just too costly for me; I would rather get a cheap and nice looking item.
But now... because I'm working part-time.. I couldn't help looking at those branded items.
I used to hate vegetables, but now I eat them.
I used to listen to techno songs, now it's just pop and band.
It's a wonder, isn't it?

Achievements:

I must say, I have achieve quite a lot in my secondary school years.
Be it academically, physically or in terms of leadership.
It is just the beginning, there are more opportunities out there for me to achieve!

[FAMILY]

I have a Dad, a Mum, an elder brother and a younger brother.
I am very fortunate that I have both my parents and I learnt to cherish them.
I am also grateful that my parents had sex and gave me two (annoying but helpful) brothers.
My Dad has a job that not many people have or think of: he works off coast.
I mean, on the sea lah.
He comes home every alternate days, sometimes comes home after I sleep.
So I feel very happy when I hear footsteps outside my house, and I will rush to open the door and welcome my Dad.
My Mum also picked up a part-time job when she sees that all of us have grown up and able to take care of ourselves.
But, lunch will never be quite the same.
Either we had outside food, or eat junk food.
That's why I always look forward to eating dinner ^-^
Mum's cooking is the best.
I see my brothers seldom talk to my father..
I love talking to my father because of his interesting stories that will never fail to capture my attention.
His kampong stories, how naughty he is, old-Granny's tales, many more.
Through conversation I then feel that I am more closer to my father :)
We rarely have family time or what, family day.
Sundays = family days? Not for my family though.
Every alternate Sunday my father comes home extra early. We would tabao food from nearby coffee shop for dinner.
While enjoying our dinner, channel 5 always have movies airing, so it's like, a very simple yet excellent time for us to be together.

I blame technology that makes us more 'distant'.
My brothers and I will coop in the room, playing the computer or using our smartphones.
Sometimes when my brother leaves his room for bathroom break or to hunt for food, my mother or father will go, 'eh? You're at home?'
It's funny and sad at the same time.
My father promised me that next year we'll go Gardens By The Bay in the early part of 2013.
I hopes he remembers it...

Looking back, my brother has grown so much, now on his attachment, soon will be enlisted in the National Service.
My younger brother will be taking his 'N' levels next year, and I'll be entering Poly.
Wow, we've grown so much!
But I also cannot deny that as my brothers & I were growing up, my parents are growing older.
It breaks my heart to see my parents having more grey hairs, & hair loss.
Everybody has to go through that stage.

I really hope for a family vacation...

[FRIENDSHIP]

THE IMPORTANCE OF FRIENDSHIP

Ahh, friends.
Bad friends, good friends.
I remember my VERY first friend I made (in primary school lah, kindergarten doesn't count okay) - an Indian girl, Shobana.
Every primary 1 kiddos cries when they are leaving their parents, waving goodbye to them at the school gate.
Of course, I'll be lying if I said I didn't cry.
I cried like this:



HAHAHAHAHHA no lah that's not true. Should be something like this:



Okay that poor baby.
So this friend (obviously my classmate), was sitting beside me.
She, too, was recovering from her sobbing.
We looked at each other, don't know why, we will better.
What caught me was her long hair.
I started braiding her hair (whoa hair styling genes since young!) and she love it when I play with her hair.
We then went to different class the next year..
Used to call her Banana xP

Ahh.. Primary 2.. is the year where I met my Sister - Pauline Tan :)
She and I got like this, magnet that we somehow knew we're gonna be very best friends.
We were together almost 24/7.
Actually what make me decide her to be my best friend was her long hair. Hehehehe.
I seemed to have a fetish for long hair.
Anyway, we were in the same class for 5 years!!
Is that fate or is that fate??
Then in P3, I met Peijia & Eve. I'm always with Peijia, Eve with Pauline. Then Eugenie and Xinting joined.
So 6 of us were together.
P3 & P4 were the same class, but some of us breakaway.
Peijia, Pauline & I went to the same P5 class.
Eve, Eugenie and Xinting went different class.
Ahh, this is where I met my other sister, Minyu :)
We are still close today!
Megan was in my class too. Minyu & I always hang out in Megan's house because her house is like a f*cking arcade.
PS2, Xbox, computer, movie theatre, food provided.
I enjoyed myself.
We always laugh like mad women back in school, where we don't know the word 'stress' but good friends with 'carefree'.

In Secondary school - destiny or what - Eve was in the same class as me!
We made friends with Serene & Jasmine & Samantha & Huishan & Shemin.
Due to some conflicts between us (hey, friends ALWAYS have conflicts okay), it became Serene, Jas, Eve & I.

Of course, my childhood friends.
Playing block catching, ice-and-water & colour catch & crocodile at the playground, buying bubble tea or ice batu after we sweat & were exhausted.
Memories - they were sweet.
One of my childhood friends became my 'sister' : Joyclyn (Did I spell her name correctly? ><)
I always go to her house because she lived near me but when the news of her saying she's moving, makes me gloomy. :(
Visited her new home a few times, but now, we don't see each other.

To me, friends are extremely important to me.
Even when I had a boyfriend back then, I valued my friends more than my boyfriend.
Because it is them who understand me more, are there for me when I am in need, they are like gems.
Of course, my boyfriend is there for me when I needed him, but, it's a different kind of feeling.

I am an overly-attached friend.

Ever since holidays started, I still meet up with Eve almost everyday.
Now, due to work (both of us), we see each other some days.
I was very frightened that she have new friends and they or she will stick to her.
I get jealous when I see other people getting close to her.
Except for my girlfriends (Jas & Serene), my gang, and her band mates.
Don't get me wrong: I am not a lesbian.
I just treasure her because she is one whom I cannot find easily in the world.
And it is God's will that He put her in the same school as me.
I've already 'lost' my Sister - she went Marsiling Secondary while I went to RS.
She considered going to my school but NA stream, but her Aunt insisted her going to an Express stream.
Back then she had a blog, so I kinda pester her saying I can't lose her.
She blogged saying something like: People change, things change, time change, everything changes.
That post was like a spear, jabbing into my heart. Pulling out, jabbing, pulling out, jabbing, until it's like minced heart meat.
I thought she had given up on our friendship, but I was wrong :)
We still text each other, and few texts were some heartening & touching messages. I kept them :)
Even now, I still feel jealous when I see her profile picture of her and her classmate.

What will happen next year? My best friend & I MIGHT get into the same school, but definitely different course.
New friends are inevitable: which means more bullshits, dramas, lies, backstabbing, hating :)

[Relationship]

Ahh.. this.
I don't think I will be talking a lot about this because I am not experience and am not an expert.
I don't want to be like some 16-year-old girl talking about love or relationship on her blog or twitter as if I'm like love guru or something (oops, does it sound like someone? hahaha)
This, getting a partner, can wait.
Peijia once told me this (exact quotes): Let nature take its course.
Which I agree. Although I have someone in mind. I don't wanna friendzone him.
I just hope he will grow feelings for me! ^-^
If I were to say 3 top qualites my partner must possess, it will be:
1. Filial to parents
2. Able to provide a family
3. Capable of handling household mistakes (eg. changing lightbulb, doorknobs, fire stove, etc)

Wanted to put taller than me, but the one I have in mind is already taller than me ^-^
My qualities are very realistic right? Not like some small girls who put qualities that are, as the Teochew saying goes: AI PEE, AI CHEE, AI TUA LIAP NEE.



Okay, I am done with my 2012 self-evaluation.
This year has been a wonderful year.
I will do up a and my 2012 countdown post on New Year.
If, that is, I can wake up.
Are you guys celebrating the New Year? Going for countdown?
Whether you are counting down outside or at home, or not counting down at all, I still want to wish all of you a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Wish 2013 will have more ups than downs for you!